my love is a broken door, breaking
you, over & over. until it’s over, and
i don’t want you to go, but i am
glad for you. i push away. there
is ice water filling up the scars holding
me together. submerging emotion.
blunted, pain cuts through obscure ice.
the submerged room i am trapped in,
i can no longer stand, i sink to give.
the pain is endless.
i open the dark box of nothing.
inside thoughts repeat
the voice of self annihilation,
as written on the walls, in the blood
of yesterday & the day after. emptied i sit.
knowing i get back to this, guts me.
i stare at the black void pool. reflection
of all my living fear.
there is no door out of this room. i am
sealed inside my mind. memory ruptures
through sinew. i leak. blooming on,
aching through night born, seeping into
the ice floor shelf, it adds
to the blackness, it will swallow me up.
i am the death mattress whore.
i plunge, submerge.
empty of me, wanting more. your face the last
i see. always, i see you, staring back at me.
mouth open. eyes gaze into
the face of all that is unknown.
you are dead. i am always dying.
our love is decomposing.
©Karen Bain 2017.All Rights Reserved.
Reblogged this on Daffniblog.
Many thanks for the reblog..
You’re very welcome. 🙂
Such grief – shattering.
Reblogged this on cabbagesandkings524 and commented:
Karen Bain offers a poem of deepest grief.
Thanks for sharing.. writing.. even through dark times, always helps X my best to you
Karen this is absolute brilliance. WOW
Nice checking in here.. to read a message like this.. Thank you for this X love your poetry
My honor, thank you as well 🙏🍻
thanks for always sharing you beautiful writing and only the best for the coming year Karen…
Thanks Marts, on the writing.. & on the wishes. Sending you my best for 2018.. X
Reblogged this on Kindra M. Austin and commented:
So stirring, Karen. Your gift with words never fails to infiltrate my bloodstream. ❤
Thank you Kindra.. such a beautiful response ..sometimes that language of pain .. has its moments, writing helps .. all i know ! I’m a very late bunny on the reply .. but I’m glad you enjoyed. been lost in book scribbling land .. whole other headache .. thanks on the reblogg X
You’re so welcome, Karen. I’m a huge fan of yours. ❤ I get happy immediately when I find something new from you because your words always resonate with me. You are a terrific writer. ❤
Thanks Kindra.. sending love X been so lost in writing that there’s much to catch up on.. Your writing I always look out for .. Your writing is wonderfully dark & real & I love it too X thankful for all that you write & share .. that sense of not being alone in all this crazy & all that’s been. I’ve been missing this space.. it’s bloody beautiful X ❤️
Captivating from the very first line.
Always good to hear.. thank you, & for reading ..
And thank you for the follow!
So tragically profound!
I didn’t comment when I first read this, because honestly I had no words. I was right there with you, forsaken and in pain
Written inside much emotion .. but I’m glad if i managed to express even a part .. we all feel into the overspill but through it .. we connect .. thanks for reading & following X
nice…
Thank you so much ! X
This is one of your most powerful pieces, Karen – stunning and yet heartbreaking. My thoughts are with you as always. x
Thank you so much Mary.. a piece that was difficult to write .. & i am glad if i managed to convey the feeling at its core .. pain seems to be a language .. working through it, can have rewards. You have been much in my thoughts, I’m an incredibly late bunny in getting back to you in email.. i did begin,& thank you for your beautiful message. Head has been misbehaving, but i promise to write soon. Look after you, Mary .. sending my love X
Thank-you for those kind words, Karen. I’m so sorry to hear that you are more unwell at present. Please don’t feel any pressure to write until you are feeling better. Apologies for my delay with this response. Take good care. Lots of love, xx.
Thanks Mary.. no apologies necessary.. you take good care of you.. lots of love, your way .. from me XX
Splendid reflection of emotion! Thank you for following BrewNSpew.
thank you so much .. & for the follow also ! X